Sorry pap, but whatever the intentions with the thread title (specifically the title) I’ve got to say that reading it feels like a fucking gut punch. Really very disappointed to have come across that on here.
However I do wholeheartedly applaud the responses found within. There’s always been a certain degree of kinship between Sotonians members (as evidenced at the matchday beers and beyond), but it was a real “ahhhh!” moment to discover that many of us are approaching life from approximately equivalent angles.
I am currently suffering from a reasonable-scale episode of depression - one of many over the past 15 or so years. Yes, there have been some distinct triggers in recent times. But as with KRG it really stems from the cusp of adulthood. Until my late teens I showed few explicit signs of depression, nor the anxiety that now defines much of my personality (though looking back, there were key warning signs reaching back as far as I remember).
It is apparently relatively common for adulthood to exacerbate these conditions. We could muse all day about the triggers for that - and perhaps should at some point - but it’s not the wider point I’m trying to make.
The anxiety is a constant and often goes hand in hand with depression. Anxiety tends to bring forth depression and depression amplifies anxiety. What’s utterly maddening is how convoluted it can make something so ‘easy’ as meeting mates for a beer. Quick-fire irrational thoughts and worries drift into and out of your mind, making you question and doubt the most basic of things. At turns it makes you feel weak, odd, blank, manic, empty…
I presume I seemed fairly chirpy and ‘together’ on Sunday. To an extent I was; I’d just set up The Butcher’s Hook for the day, which is a place I have great fondness for and it’s work that I enjoy. I was feeling particularly validated (like a real-life, functioning proper human) and looking forward to catching up with some mates that I’d not seen for a while. Even then, there’s always a low-level difficulty with social situations. Silencing the nagging voice within and even simply communicating verbally can be immensely tiring.
So if medication makes everyday tasks and merely existing even 5% easier then fuck me, I’m in. No, it doesn’t necessarily ‘solve’ anything. The key point is that by facilitating perceived normal behaviour this can increase fulfillment. Of course this works to different degrees for different people and should really be twinned with other coping strategies and techniques. As touched upon by others, in a stretched medical system pills can be over-prescribed. But as one tool in an arsenal, for many people it’s invaluable.